Category: Family

i’m going to try

It occurs to me that I could be documenting Katie’s infancy here- if not to share with others- for myself- and for her amusement later in life… blogging here would also be a nice way of getting things off my chest- cause there’s a lot on my chest lately! No, I don’t mean literally…

Unfortunately I have stopped breast feeding rather recently- I’m really feeling bad about it.  I mean, I can actually nurse her a little bit still- and if I found a better pump (Ihave a lansinoh double electric that seems to not work so well anymore) Icould probably work up to getting some of my milk back (in addition to nursing Katie with the little bit that I am still producing) but its been a bit of a hassle (I’m feeling guilty about feeling that way about BFing) anyway- so that’s just one of the  things on my mind.

What prompted me to actually post (not that I haven’t been thinking about it for a while) is listening to Hubby in the living room taking care of Katie (I’m working this morning).  She is complaining- and he is consoling her- telling her that although she really wants to be able to do it by herself (apparently she is going for the ‘back to front’ roll, she can do the ‘front to back’ roll), she has to be patient and keep trying…

And before I competely forget, I have to share what hubby said the other day.  I was remarking on Katie’s dimple- she has a cute little one when she smiles- she also has them on her knees and elbows and severalother places- so hubby says to me- “well that’s what babies are- a collection of dimples”…. I thought that was cute coming from him.

So, let’s see if I can get into a regular schedule of posting, not that I ever really was.


The tranfer is tomorrow!!

Well, there has been some drama.  I had to come to terms with the fact that only three of the five eggs retrieved were able to be “ICSI’d”, and then only two fertilized.  I was devastated because my chance for a second chance cycle was gone.

Today they called us with the day 2 report and we have 2- 2cell “excellent’s”- and that at least gives us a little hope.  The transfer is tomorrow at 9:30, I have to be there with a “partially full bladder”.  I have heard many stories and how long you have to wait with this “partially full bladder” which becomes, in the end, an excrutiatingly full bladder! Can’t wait!

My Mother in Law has a Chrystler 300- nice big “cushy” car, and she called to ask us if we wanted to borrow it in favor of the sometimes ox-cart like ride our Scion gives us.  She was going to accompany us (its actually nice that she asked, and it was done in a very non-Mother-in-Law-poking-her-nose-in-where-it-does-not-belong kind of way).  Then she called back and said we could borrow the car and she wouldn’t come as she was afraid she would be bad luck! 

People keep asking about the baby thing, so its been on my mind a lot lately.

Some of you may remember that my insulin was high and I was taking metformin to help get it in check- first labs were very promising- and with an increased dose the second set of labs…went half way back to where they started.  I was devastated.  And I have been scared to get the labs done again.  I know its really silly, and in the grand scheme of things the labs are not a big deal.  But, along the way- every part is as important as the next- so it may as well have been (to me at the time) a negative pregnancy test.

This comes up today because my Mother-in-Law called me to tell me she heard the UAMS infertility department was going to close its doors.  I had already gotten the news from someone else- and been told that sometime next year (late summer) the program would come to am end.  So, a little pressure- not such a bad thing- but coming from Mother in Law it was not what I needed.  She also decided to tell me the nurses in her department were really more fond of the reproductive endocrinologists out in private practice, and pretty much assumed we would now be going there.  (I know they are good…but…this is my issue, thank you).

While she is telling me this my phone is beeping with a call on the other line- and so I end my call and dial back my friend from Dallas …who has called to tell me she is pregnant.  I know I shouldn’t be upset, but it’s just a little like salt, ya know.

I am probably going to get the lab work done next week, hopefully it is good and we can get to the real deal sometime soon.